Do I have something to be more careful with?

Of course Garner and Affleck have their own personal story but what an advance that was with Ben Affleck saying something like that to Garner on msn. I think she should still feel a freedom to say "no," but it is their story..... I still feel a lot of Bollywood talk has got me nowhere. I know I still have an occasional sob in my throat from time to time. And, this day today they may comfort me as they seem, but I'm still alone and isolated. Right now there is one main Bollywood I feel to focus on, but am I really breaking other men's hearts and even one particular I would focus on? I've had my Burmuda soap opera drama and even though I am a politically correct single female bachelor; my heart wants to hesitate and handle other boats and planes with a little more care. With some questionable signs I've seen and my own personal fears with deaf Butches, being mishad, mishandled, mistaken I want all boats and planes to feel shot down. The Butch phobia has gotten worse through time and I feel I've had no other choice than to be over-protective of myself. ...Right now mystery Mike is the one that gives me the strongest feeling in the paranormal. He mostly says the right things in my mind and though more tangible signs increase, he isn't putting the action to his words enough in keeping me from feeling alone and isolated. Mystery Mike, I think you laugh some at the way we were never married and official but when you beg for me through Affleck, how are you really saying "It was the biggest regret."? Besides me not getting whatever or whoever you cheated on me with (besides the isolation and loneliness) the thing that makes me mad is the way I don't think you get yourself with the way you want to come across to me. You look like you seriously want to obligate yourself to me and there is some care to my emotional well-being (can't hide how seriously damaged it is) you still won't give me the relief I need. I can't stand how much no one ever understood me enough YET YOU MAKE QUITE AN APPROACH and I can only keep looking back at you with "In degrees wasting time" and me thinking "why won't you get me?" In my mind Mystery Mike, you were showing some fairness and understanding, but you want to hook me more and leave me in the same anxiety. Get it Mystery Mike, get it. ...I was actually going to write another blog today with so many thoughts going through my mind but its just too much to talk out loud about in one blog. another rainy day …