Do I take it seriously? No.
There are always going to be some obsessed "mothers that are trying to look out for me." But, I'm my own independent judge. Even if it is a Burmuda to me: in reality and in Bermuda, I trust myself.
Crazy to make choices while in Burmuda, a person never knows possible potentials or what the twisted hidden thing is.
I like adventure. I like to either figure things out or play around with my imagination in my bored life.
That being said..............
Moscow, Alec/Alex is the one I can make out most. I think the baseball A-Rod may be involved along with the real ethnic Russian that I met in person. I have high suspects that he either looks like a police officer or some sort of agent but he could be his own person in NY.
The real Russian sees either me or my sister in Eva. I think Lynette is Kate Hudson and she may suspect Moscow as A-Rod.
I have an honest attraction to the Moscow I met in person.
I can't believe how much can be made out of meeting a man in one time.
Anyway. Even though I can hide my feelings well, I say what is on my mind to prove a point: I'm stronger than my jealousy.
I don't care if it is Josh or David.
The real Russian, fine, I have some jealousy. But I've experienced jealousy before. I've been through some men before.
It doesn't break my determination.
I don't want to get involved in a ridiculous soap opera. That is a drama in itself outside of Desperate Housewives.
I know how the game goes with some men: Words and even actions are not always taken into account. If they see any emotion whatsoever, it means to all that they must still have you.
No.
I do make effort to move on with life. I do make effort to pursue other things and continue to live with determination.
It doesn't seem I have gotten far and thats what leads me back to the male driven assumption and trap: Any hint of emotion must mean that he still has her. No.
It leads me to my next unanswered thought: With my instincts feeling so real, how do I survive on my own and gain independence and convince the man that we shouldn't be together? It seems like it never has been fair conversation or even an opportunity for conversation.
Not just with him, but with others.
I think some men burn on the inside more than others with the single issue of a female wanting an equal say at calling the shots.
Maybe its not about love, lust, or anything else, just the burning of having to be a Chauvenist or maybe even a mysogynist.
I'd love to put Brittany Spears Circus on, but I would rather be taken very seriously.
